Thursday, November 26, 2009

House and job

A the end of next month, I will have my house with me, the construction company complete the house and hand over to the owner, so I can start the decoration of that house.
For the decoration, I have many things to doubt about it, I am not sure that I will have enough money to decorate that house, so I am kind of worry about that, then I think of the past how I make a decision, I find that I am worse than before.

For example, when I decide to leave a position, I consider too much, I think maybe after the decoration when I move into the new house, that will be better for me to look for a new job at that time, but sometimes I am not that sure, maybe I should ask for resign and move out immediately, but after I think that I have so many belongings, I lost the interest in move out, I hate moving, that is true. But am I thinking too much when make the decision to move out. I think it isn’t a good thing. At before when I decide to do something, I will do it without much consideration, but now I have consider too much, I know nothing is perfect, maybe I can’t look for a job is good after the house decoration, maybe I can’t borrow that much money to decorate the house, everything is uncertain, so why I have to worry that much?

Still I think the life is quite dull, I didn’t pay any attention in study after that examination, I know that I am kind of mess up and I will have to think over it seriously, I don’t know why I am so afraid of my age, anytime when I think of my age that I am nearly 30s, I got confused and wanted to stop the life back.

Still another problem confuse me, why I think that much today?