Tuesday, December 01, 2009
Living and mood

I didn’t know whether I am in good mood or bad mood, now everyday I sit in front of the computer doing nothing, in fact that is nothing for me to do so, at every morning I wake up, wash myself and come into the office to start working, but I am really don’t know what I am there for, the people in the office don’t care about me, as if I don’t exist. I don’t care them too, because very soon I will leave this position and move to my new house.

At before, when that is nothing for me to do at office, I will feel very terrible, because I am afraid that with so much free time and not business, the boss will fire me, I don’t have a job to do so support my life, but at today I don’t care, I don’t know why, I don’t care what the boss think of me, what the colleague think of me that what a failure I am and don’t get any business for so a long time, I don’t have the pressure and I don’t give me any pressure, I just spend the time in office casually and wait for the time for decoration and move in. I don’t care the boss that don’t pay any attention to the exporting, and I can’t get any business out of that. I think that has nothing to do with me as very soon I will leave that position.

As job, to support my life and the dream that work hard to get promotion and more money not longer interest me, I just want to live the life casually and ignore what the world think of me, I know that I am kind of dull at this moment, but actually I don’t care at all.

I know that is the problem with me, that I should not spend my life like this, but I can’t help myself, once I have made up the decision that I will leave this position one or two months, I don’t really care about how the environment think of me, how the surrounding affect myself, I only think how to make myself comfortable and enjoyable.
I don’t know that I should call it mature or fed up.